In my attempts to release our families
on earth, I did harm, and I did shame for
drawing attention to the gross neglect of
each adult, inherited by each son .
When that’s ongoing decades , of 14
generations, even without the awareness
I have learned the cellular abuses and
and abusers can and are healing amass.
For this social misfit , survivor of oral
rape, at age 5 has been my hell on earth .
It attracts , due to my ability to dream and
hold it and manifest it ..My warnings hold
no weight, though what I discuss , in
earnest , holds no value , and certainly
no joy in the reality of actualization.
Divine has shared my truths with me
and I grasp the who what why and where
and I still hold space for the healing of
each family member , beloved , friend
past or present to do as they are intended
as I am .
I made calls today in awareness, which
felt immediate , and I did all I could to
communicate , and release from a past
that is ever present with the father of our
sons . He does not feel the love
conciouness , only loss and errors in
an endless review of misdeeds inherited
experienced, witnessed and certainly
responsible …That dislocation is trama
a reality of hell on earth , and witnessing
the revelations, and unions , and
financial volatility, has added to the
physical burdens of a lifetime of poor
eating habits, smoking for 5.5 Decades
and he has spoken of these bearing out
then recends them, though I know he has
tried valuiently to hide his health issues
as he did his emotional and psychological
and after years of trying to roll with it
to hold our foundation , I failed.
I have not, nor will I ever be forgiven .
My truths , could adversely affect him
as well as our sons , even it’s Divinity
his journey , is not deviating.
My Mother did the same thing .
My sister did the same thing .
With so little warning, so few years , with
Dad , it was not as I saw it unfolding
and has born out , in 7 years , is still
bearing out truths .
I’m hanging at home, great nap, evening s
storm, and nice lulls in traffic that often
shreds my ears , and Peace.. Feeling
caught up, or perhaps my path of prep
toward moving is better ..
I dont hold the power of life nor death
and spiritual death , when accepted as
the doorway to birthing , or rebirthing
and you are the creator .
Now more than ever , I am vested in my
visions , my wake and nighttime dreams
and I have shared them to an extent
and sadly have learned that it adversely
creates an incentive lacking Divinity .
I am a gun owner , not of choice but of
force , and that force had guided me to
this place , of acceptance.
To accept my worth , my strengths, my
Divinity …accept that all do not have eyes
to see me, ears to hear me , arms to hold
me, a heart that is home to me , a
foundation that is all that is and will
Divine knows who this Beloved is , and
that is all I need to know . ©️
Blessings & Peace