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As a veteran of isolation , since childhood

which was part nature , as I preferred the

dream world , version, rather than my

day to day reality, intermittently doused

by light and laughter . It had to be enough

and though I tried to stay centered , the

distanced and dislocated impacted my life

adversely , remaining shadow, without

resolution. Awareness was a wack-a-mole

and adulthood saw me running for my

renewal or claim beginning; the solid

foundation so necessary for true balance .

Impatience, diet, prescription medication

as the abuses within my home towards

me , and each of our sons, as I witnessed

the result of 3 adults , who masked abuse

and addictions , and targeted me in

united family domestic and child abuse .

In pregnancy, I had to learn patience ,

as I relearned the prayer equaled

patience in the last 2 decades , even more

for the RX and knowing advantage taken

that allowed the continuation of these

abuses .

I learned that patience, prayer , love

and forgiveness are cellular , inherent

in my nature , as is creation, and after

all the tragic lessons , and hell on earth

experiences , I know peace within .

I know love and forgiveness within .

It simply does not make sense to have

mastered so much , weight what I did in

1983, and rejoyce to be alive each

moment, a lover of life , more so for

the love of Divine, the support of many

around the world .

Awareness , of the tremendous efforts of

many in this quest of spiritual liberation

as well as the inability to step back in

time, or have illusion, delusion or

addiction , to what is not in my best

interest . I am certainly aware I have to

accept and surrender to past being

insurmountable , or totally reject me to

infinity… even children, lovers , brothers

sisters and signigant others …as has been

their perogitive , desire that I be dead

after a postmortem, I am certainly ready

and willing to honor her and just be ..

I cannot deny, graduation of 12 steps and

rejection of my essence , in silent living

denial that is death .

While I am very sad to be releasing folks

and situations that have adversely

affected my growth in a perverse

competitive sport . Compounded by child

abuse of 2 generations, my blood kin

in what I have learned is generational ;

with conformations of these abuses in

behaviors, silence , communication and

actions as well as non actions .

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🐸πŸ”₯πŸ¦…β™₯οΈπŸ•ŠπŸ—½πŸŒπŸŒŸπŸ˜˜

Blessings & Peace ,

Dona Luna

Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited

I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse. As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven. I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child. I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power.. I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination.. Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative". It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..

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