I am again surrendered to everything that keeps me from the truths and laws within me , that seem to alienate those who dont belong in my personal story .
This social isolation, has increased my awareness , along with inaction, a forsaken place I have much respect for and know as trauma, has only made me weep , as I wake to the holding of trauma and the lack still of holding me as I need and asking had lowered my vibration , and shall no longer visit this energy , for my desire is to hold my light , Divine Light. No more delays , as I discussed with a ” brother ” Pisces , I have always done it, ultimately, unsupported and dont feel my life need be concerned by others journey , be it shadow..
I have paid the price of the complex, and resolved as much as I can of the past , that I have not been allowed to exit from until I learned all I could, and I have .
I have practiced my story over and over, of creating my home , my foundation, of being responsible , and giving to my community , and evolving that Beloved would show up , and I could developed a friendship, in a higher spiritual awareness.
I realized that only briefly for very sacred moments have I had that sacred space , as well as the blockages which have evolved into wisdoms, that are still unseen ,unknow to folks I have felt a Divine connection to, born to, birthed or ordained.. There is not one of these connections currently on this Earth , and I am accepting that my journey is to release this , and keep my vibration on high that I can escape the clashes to my spirit and soul .To do this I leave all out but my connection to Divine Source .
I have been shown I am strong enough , and I am careless to focus my energies on anything or anyone that does allow Divine Source within each of us , and I own my failure to be that , in each and every interaction .Human kind will fail , as is normal Divine will not.. I must always own this ♥️
I am in the right place , the right time and I do have a grand design that is unfolding and I am grasping that is flowing and is not requiring Beloved , for that has always has been and always be within me and will be saftly held , one day .
Indepence , draws the energy of fixing and knowing all or being easy to manipulate but I have always looked through eyes of love that just allowed some very cruel intentions , and it’s still heartbreaking , and I am still hearing how I am NOT , out loud… Never , ever what I am… It has been an uphill climb out of death , destruction , and emotional deserts , and even knowing the base roots is a human experience , stepping out totally , is my alternative, my Divine guidance imperative, not to PUSH my deeper spiritual awareness , my traditional beliefs, or my nurture as 8000k ancestors , and all guidance says I am worthy , and I note I have always had this gift, this guidance, and need not concern myself with my invisibility to anyone, and therein I am liberated.
A fire in my belly has been glowing and minimizing myself is not healthy , blessing all adversity has led me ultimately to my power and strength..I certainly dont plan to abuse it, only to utilize it for service to others and self .
I accept my wisdoms are rooted in lessons of love and wisdoms of all I am now and so many in this others in this life , ancestors, masters, and I am so very honored and blessed with this awareness and conclusion of what has been devastating in my search for love, strength, back up, hand on my back, which has always been within . My fears of past abuses will never be repeated.
It is a very emotional reward , this gift, as I face awareness and independence in building New Earth , all that is not of love , is removed as it has been , to teach me greater love , including as indicated sons, grandchildren , the ever unknown former , brothers , sisters , lovers , for it is in losing all, I found myself . I do not what the future holds , only that nothing past shall be repeated that is not of love and life .
I have noted that I have been responsible , I have been the leader and it is past time for fun and creativity . As in childhood, I was the trusted leader in my neighborhood , and certainly tested in many ways , to have me question myself in always , and also the other and with much greater understanding , I release all that served to devalue me as well as my acceptance of the development. I bless all that supports my value , my place in this world 🌐😘
I am taking the time to get physically stronger , and in order as I release that which time has no place or space no rhyme nor reason, no peace, no love .
Blessings & Peace ,