In this discussion , he brings up what I have experienced many times , and had to come out of..the suffering of others . History still lives in 14 generations of karmic experiences , both positive and negative as I grasp is cellular inheritance .
I had no choice to accept the grossest negatives; most heartless acts did happen and folks who could have aided me did not …when I had no choice was as horrific as any gas chamber when I was in a chemical straitjacket and the focus was cover up and disposal , weather by design or choice.. Our sons witnessed this as normal, and it was not, is not.. But it’s common.
Facts , discussed here as I believe it also include disclosure of truths that many families have been challenged with at tragic expense and loss that includes money ..
I had to realize that as Dad exited he had his own grand design , and I had to release him to that journey, though parts were very negative due to others that could not be tuned out , there were Blissed and Blessed experiences . At the end, the shadow was so deeply held , that I could step out of “sibling abuse ” and have had no guilt for there has been no effort to contact me as they hold pain, trauma , jealousy and anger …that I have repeatedly tried to step out of happened with Dad’s exit … his gift to me.
I am very aware that he watches over me , as he deeply regretted his failures as a parent and did not have words until those last 6 months to go deep into soul stuff.. Shadow was creating the finality of death , fear and cost etc …My light “work” was clearly positive and rewarded with Dad’s Angel’s showing up at least 6 times that I noted as I sat by him .. Crawling in bed beside him was impossible ; I was made aware of my ” being allowed” to even be there, included the threat of power that I’d be locked up as openly threatened against sister who could not sleep in there house due to hygiene etc .#Negative energy in spades ..
All the while holding space for my inner knowing and adaptation was heroic as I participated in an insane act of such malice and grievance that I was very concerned for the rebound…I have surrendered to others karmic lessons for being accountable in however universal karma , good or bad , as I hold joy to be out from under the illusion that shadow wins .
Corrections are taking place , and yes I have fallen back..falling on my knees at all the injustices and I do have faith in Divine’s grand design .
Blessings & Peace ,