A gift from a Beloved , sharing w/ my Beloveds : Surrender

Surrender is often taboo, like death , it’s an unknown

a frontier of fear and dank and darkness …I was so there

for so many years , 13 as a over medicated , ” mental”

patient ..my journaling attest to my effort to connect

with Spirit ..I know I would have exited had it not been

for each of our sons, my parents , siblings etc.

An induced ” attempted ” suicide via an RX , was inferred

as my emotional state due to a divorce ..

My “emotional state ” was 3600 mg of a highly addictive

RX , and a partner leaving our home to be happy , and

sharing that happy publicly..crowing …adding to the shame

then projected blame , sailing through with aide of his personal

family supplier of funds ..His Beloved …no doubt ” Bonded

in trauma , owning an elitist mentality and barren emotional

addictive life style that defied spirit or growth..

It has long since been in my stages of recovery , that retaliation

would not be my focus , but that’s still the perception of folks

whose fear drives them..I know this…I am there focused on

reclaiming my personhood …My fragmented heart , has been

patched with with such gold as to certify as a glow worm !

In that my Beloved shared her dream of me as a child , as

this child had known deep shadow , and much separation

and trauma, Beloved saw me as a very happy child self again.

Showing my child self picture , she smiled and said, yes that was

your child healed and happy in my dream..

This yet another profound gift , I wish to share , a gift..

“Until you surrender your need to know why things happened

to you as they did , you will hold on to those wounds with intense

emotional fire . Your mind will want to heal but your pride , anger

and emotions will remain caught up in wanting to make sure

that the people who hurt you feel bad about what they’ve done.

Or you may want to hurt the, back . But rest assured , your emotional

self will remain attached to unfinished business rooted in feelings

of abandonment and humiliation , of having lost something or

being cheated . Your mind may do what’s required for healing

and go through all the prescribed steps , but your heart will never

fully participate in the healing process . In the end, forgiveness is

an act of release , surrendering a need for explanation . From that

prospective , forgiveness has nothing to do with the individuals

who harmed you . It is the act of accepting that there is a greater

map of life , through which many rivers of events and relationships

all interconnected . Forgiveness is your release from the hell

of events and relationships , all interconnected. Forgiveness is your

release from hell of wanting to know what cannot be known and

and wanting to see others suffer because they have hurt you.”

~Carolyn Myss.

It is a reclamation , after too many years of non negotiation , which

has been an equation of his children/grandchild are his ..I own

half ” his” property .. Does not compute , and I am ever Thankful

to throw down this monkey , a circus that supports ErasingFamilies

or Domestic Abuse , and move into manifesting safety for those

in need …Praying divine assist his journey ..

2019 is a very special, a very holy new beginning …🙏🏼

It is so for me , as we Spirituality Detox these dank shadows

know it’s soon to be de solved as more light evaporates

Journeying closer and closer in heart’s longing for harmony .

Blessings & Peace

Dona Luna

Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited

I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse. As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven. I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child. I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power.. I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination.. Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative". It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..

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