” Coming to ” , I visited churches searching for a fit for my soul.
I felt that connection in a sweet Baptist church in my neighborhood .
In addition to “winging it ” in my own recovery , leaving a very insulated
shroud of existence in the 10th year of treatment for Domestic Abuse
translated as Bipolar Manic Depression ll, induced as were each of our
son’s births by humans vested in corporate profit over people . What
was induced or birthed was Complex Chronic Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
ignored , by each professional , that has observed , ruled or diagnosed
The transformation was in large part due to my ability to step out of
norms that were not of my choice or soul intent . Akin to being shunned
with a scarlet letter , I was invited to an SGI-Buddhist group , and some
thing clicked within me , and practicing , communing with others fed
and fueled my base line : Hope… It’s what I am known for , born of
my hope, for all the years of abuse , in so many areas of my life , thus
3 sons , born over shame , greed , all the lowest of human value systems ..
I held Hope.. yes there were times I felt defeat , alone in a battle that
seems to have no end ..
Exposure …Speak of truths , that scream out for transformation ..this
is huge for one silenced since , my 5 year old self was raped by a Narcissistic
long deceased maternal uncle .
I had no choice , personally but to open the Pandora’s Box , that professionals
had no key, no advice for. Religion , as I knew it , rejected my every attempt
to integrate . I had to loose fear , Buddhism opened my head , my heart
and supported my quest …Spirituality just about covers , what is .
All there is , All there will be , and like Love, and Healing , has
divinely placed many Light Filled Folks , from birth to exits , teaching
” To know that knowledge is ignorance
Is to be Ignorant and to Believe
That Ignorance is knowledge
Is a mental disease
To be sick of sickness
Is the cure
The wise spirit avoids sickness
By being sick of it
That is the way to Health .
=Balance ( Tao)
I personally have applied this theory to all aspects of my life .
My delay has been as always , the opposition that has catalyzed
but has no power no place in my life any longer .
Gratitude and Peace