” Coming to ” , I visited churches searching for a fit for my soul.

I felt that connection in a sweet Baptist church in my neighborhood .

In addition to “winging it ” in my own recovery , leaving a very insulated

shroud of existence in the 10th year of treatment for Domestic Abuse

translated as Bipolar Manic Depression ll, induced as were each of our

son’s births by humans vested in corporate profit over people . What

was induced or birthed was Complex Chronic Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

ignored , by each professional , that has observed , ruled or diagnosed

until 2006.

The transformation was in large part due to my ability to step out of

norms that were not of my choice or soul intent . Akin to being shunned

with a scarlet letter , I was invited to an SGI-Buddhist group , and some

thing clicked within me , and practicing , communing with others fed

and fueled my base line : Hope… It’s what I am known for , born of

my hope, for all the years of abuse , in so many areas of my life , thus

3 sons , born over shame , greed , all the lowest of human value systems ..

I held Hope.. yes there were times I felt defeat , alone in a battle that

seems to have no end ..

Exposure …Speak of truths , that scream out for transformation ..this

is huge for one silenced since , my 5 year old self was raped by a Narcissistic

long deceased maternal uncle .

I had no choice , personally but to open the Pandora’s Box , that professionals

had no key, no advice for. Religion , as I knew it , rejected my every attempt

to integrate . I had to loose fear , Buddhism opened my head , my heart

and supported my quest …Spirituality just about covers , what is .

All there is , All there will be , and like Love, and Healing , has

divinely placed many Light Filled Folks , from birth to exits , teaching

me well.

” To know that knowledge is ignorance

Is to be Ignorant and to Believe

That Ignorance is knowledge

Is a mental disease

To be sick of sickness

Is the cure

The wise spirit avoids sickness

By being sick of it

That is the way to Health .

=Balance ( Tao)

I personally have applied this theory to all aspects of my life .

My delay has been as always , the opposition that has catalyzed

but has no power no place in my life any longer .

Gratitude and Peace


Author: GreatCosmicMothersUnited

I have joined with many parents affected with the surreal , yet accepted issue of child abuse via Pathogenic Parenting / Domestic abuse. As a survivor of Domestic Abuse, denial abounded that 3 sons were not affected. In my desire to be family to those who have found me lacking . As a survivor of psychiatric abuse, therapist who abused also and toxic prescribed medications took me to hell on earth with few moments of heaven. I will share my life, my experiences and my studies and research.. I will talk to small circles and I will council ; as targeted parents , grandparents , aunts , uncles etc. , are denied contact with a child for reasons that serve the abuser ...further abusing the child. I grasp the trauma and I have looked at the lost connection to a higher power.. I grasp when one is accustomed to privilege, equality can feel like discrimination.. Shame and affluence silences a lot of facts , truths that have been labeled "negative". It is about liberation of the soul from projections of a alienator , and abuser ..

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