I’ve known this , Mom was a silent, wounded individual.. Ex has used this silence to hide under for decades . Emotional abuse indeed.
In face I met him today , and too late I realized he insisted on meeting , enraged that he was forced to cut me a check that was minuscule , and he blamed me for my current state of affairs , saying , ” you brought this on yourself ” and as always says I should be work..
A 3rd party was made aware of his promissory on the funds , and not a dollar more. He’s in major denial that he owes me money and threatened not to renew our next lease , which would have me without income.
This token payment, as I’ve discussed needed dental work( life endangering issues) , cataracts removed, which requires surgery , and that could be done reasonably if I signed up for a better Medicare plan , which he mentioned possibly taking care of ..
I drive a 98 4Runner , which is not dependable, and I spend tons to keep it running . My inheritance paid for my vehicles , my Kia was wiped out by a helper and not salvageable.
And I must get into my home. I have some help in that , and that makes him angry .. he feels I don’t deserve any help , and thinks he will succeed in destroying me if I have non come or less ..
So basically, he insisted we meet so he could vomit his toxic rage on me , before he left town for a week, and I’m his target in his mind .
It seems his never ending story of distorted energy , targeting me will not end with his responding to responsibility , accountability , and end this personal war . I’m aware of this now fully and have awareness of what should be done .
God knows he’s missed the opportunities to avoid what’s going to feel and look like force , but will balance out the unbalanced .
It’s true the distorted NPD gets worse with age
And as always his silence is supposed to wound me, but it only speaks to his character.
The End is closer and he doesn’t want to give up on control.
His words were distorted , his twisted mind, thoughts, spewing out and he usually allows our sons to speak for him, and hearing him today I realized how he speaks of me around or to them, our sons ..
His judgement day looms ..
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