The message came to me tonight , that in finding my voice , striving to come from a place of peace always , . Saying no, was part of my childhood, and knowing who what where and how I learned horrifically that I did not have power against an adult … I did not loose it, and spent lots of lonely time, but I strived to be beyond my reality and as soon as I could I was at friends, without realities close by I could hang with.
I didn’t find my “ no “ always brought pleasant results , and trying to avoid repeat energy from that 5 year old self , too often found myself doing all manner of personal boundaries..
All that I have experienced, has brought me more intensely focused on being and doing better .. I’ve mentioned many challenges , delays and horrific violations of my personal code .. As a result I have learned that each NO lifts me beyond the negatives .
Energy is precious , it’s holy , it is purified , and I have cleared , keep clearing and in my natural state I have “ it “ , I am a “drug “ to others who wanna utilize me spiritually , for the “ fix “;. Where that has been holy , sacred and ordained has been destroyed , in my Motherhood , by more than a few , who don’t want to acknowledge, much less heal , and deny the ramifications and lack of growth in not being interested .
So I say no , and anyone who could execute power over me , in any way to hold me down, when it’s time to not only fly but to soar..
I have chosen to say no when I see that I’m not seen, that I note the not interested ..I watch run , ghost , go blank. I let go , let God/ Divine /Buddha “ Thy Will be done “ . Not vibing, not noting signs or scared of those rain bows, numbers , running in to each other , Nope , I’m not settling for 50%…
I’ve said no to that , and never conveyed that I would , ever accept that… I was duped in the past , I learned and I’m not walking it back…That does not equate that I’m weary. , desperate , Any thing but discerning , and allow that individual to be who they are , and teach me , a show and tell as it were .. and I lovingly let go , after a teacher showed me the waste of energy , the delayed progress and harsh lessons inherent in not honoring myself , and my vibes ..
If there is a Beloved , it will happen… I keep the faith , that my life is on the rise …I’m saying no to stating in the energy that drained me , damn near killed me, and might still prefer me dead .. rebirthing is possible .
Vision , pure and intact , or eye on the prize 🏆
Emotional vulnerability ,, connects , and if it’s not there, is NO
This is where freedom is ❤️😘✌️ Alignment does not compromise is content, nothing lacking , where love is safe and I’m ok with the journey to receive this holy love ❤️
I love , myself , nurture myself and cheerlead myself. And I say no and I’m in gratitude to receive this message tonight ..
Blessings 🙏🏼& Peace ✌️,
Dona Luna 🐸❤️
