Many years ago, I tested for SuperHyperSensitivity on line and tested 100% . In searching for the info to share here, I note that SHS is now a ” disorder “;which like Post Traumatic Stress, has been coded in a DSM so that it’s billable for insurance coverage .
I sense there are many reasons for my hyper sensitivity . A Mom who a year before went into spontaneous labor with a baby girl who had died and started to decompose , due to the failure of her OBGYN to acknowledge she was in labor .
Her 2nd child , died due to medical ignorance , and her 1st was born out of wedlock, and was publicly acknowledged as illegitimate, due the force/rape of a boy she knew , who threatened to have all his male friends testify that they had sex with her, as well pointing the finger at my Dad who dated her, so there was much shame , added to the trauma .
I’m fairly certain Mom was medicated with Twilight Sleep , a combination of hypnotic drugs , that left her with no memory of giving birth , thus no bond to her newborn . I recall hearing forceps were used , and I sense I was experiencing Twilight Sleep, given her . ** adverse reactions to highly addictive hallucinogenic medications.
I would not latch , in her effort to nurse me, which compounded the lack of bonding . I became so dehydrated, I nearly died and had to return to the hospital for treatment .
I believe these medications in Twilight Sleep adversely affected my nervous system, and along with my 0- blood type , created a higher sensitivity to stimuli. I am allergic to many prescribed drugs which has been largely ignored by the medical community , and why an illness becomes more sever , more challenging, more toxic .
So now it seems the APA wants to diagnose this adverse reaction , or sensitivity as a mental disorder $$$
Add trauma to the equation and I guess that reactions I had , were strange to parents, siblings etc who did not have these sensitivities , traumas etc , and who did not have the knowledge I have been gifted .
I witnessed reactions to procedures with eldest son , from being circumcised to reactions to any contact on his new born skin from diapers as I used disposable , and cloth , he was raw for many months ; far beyond diaper rash .
Of course , boys are denied sensitive characters , just because they are male .. huge mistake .
I don’t react as I used to , with test after test , for over 2 intense decades .
I tear up at beautiful moments and in empathy, and understand my sensitivity as a gift .. being vulnerable is a superpower , as I learned more about myself , and clarified the character of the person who tried to disadvantage me .. my empathy for that person used to allow me try very hard to help the abusive person see the boomerang, or karmic return of actions that did me much harm..I no longer intervene, for I understand that person has their own journey , their own path and their own free will .
It’s difficult to release , but far too much has been experienced to ignore the intent , and I concentrate on the peace and love within me , the changes , and my gifts of empathy, sensitivity and forgiveness that’s denied me , from others who resist change , growth and ascending to that place of their own assessment , desiring to be a better , more humane human being .
The test ;
https://lonerwolf.com/highly-sensitive-person-test/
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