I regret not having sister memories that remain. Sister had those 4 years ahead of me , sharing a birthday of Cosmic importance , yet I doubt she ever knew.
I wanted the sweetness , the sister trust , but she left for California to begin the 1st grade , with a childless great aunt and uncle , whom she snowed had control of .
She took a huge chunk of me with her , safety was evaporated .. Safe ? I know I had spirit with me, my whole life, for my psychic earned me to steer clear of her friends , in out buildings, smoking stolen cigarettes, and popping stolen red hots
I guess I always saw my child self as older , the old soul , but she had been sexually raped , indricronated in sex with uncle at age 5.. Only last year I learned of that continuing through adulthood.
I felt abandoned by sister, for that year was harsh, 1958… guidance taught me
Mama sent sister to Ca , for that year for a variety of reasons .. Sister had more advantages for sure , but she was co sleeping with our younger brother in his twin and she and I in a double .. We spooned as we slept , and too often we played it seemed late into the night. I don’t recall anything harmful , nor do I believe sister and Mama had intimate talks though they were friends , Mama carried much shame for her birth and behavior..
2nd sister is 2 generations younger and the Aries to my Pisces , as such I do share some genetic traits, but we are polar opposites ,with respect and distance that just is , what it is and will be .
Of course I have had many soul sisters, for periods of time , and I feel we were good for each other at that time. Currently , my soul sisters are varied and have little time as we distanced ourselves long ago , for healers , self healing becomes a spiritual gig , because of of failures in our past . Errors in Diagnosis and treatment, from a to z, eyes and dental …
Those failed sister and mother , both LPNs, at retirement and bam, major health problems , decades of nutritional lacks ,over indulging in sugar and fats etc , very little sleep and heavy smokers , who held their truths.. I am their voice in ways that had Mama speak to me this morning , and it was so sweet and supportive .., Daddy showed up as well and was proud , as I looked out and saw a single buzzard or hawk, signaling alls in alignment .. my whole day was like that , easy and sweet , calling each son , with messages of love and affirmation that all is in perfect alignment ..Hang cause I know you can, as majestic gods I knew and lost , for my lack of self love ..
A common loss, of self , splitting , fragmented parts that felt safe and looked loony , or regressive , depressive , made us look different .
We are different, and I am pledged to participate as much as possible in this spiritual evolution. I am proud to be here and intend to strengthen my physical.
As beautiful a day , the rural picasso lauded farms and gardens and my longing intensified , my knowing my home is coming and I want planting to commence.
Mama made pickles from my abundant cucumbers , 79/80 that were still on shelves in their basement 2010!
That house had a greenhouse off of Ivey’s bedroom . Cement floor , but oh how I loved it , growing corn from seed just to witness what it would do.
Sisters and brothers can be abusive , and that can be dismissed. I cannot tell you how many years, I longed to matter to siblings , the foundation betraying my core needs .
As of yet , I have not connected with sister spiritually , but I am open to her .. more than that I feel she is released , and the erased family that she and her family experienced as well, will be healed in the exposure of the child abuse side effects.
Sister’s 1st child was kept from her Dad , who had an addiction to alcohol, and her child was with held from her for a lot of years .. So yes, I stand for each of them , 3 perhaps 4 generations ..
Spirit allowed how proud they are and how hard I’ve worked, as they aide in conclusions and creation of New Earth , the ” Seeds” they planted generations ago are matured !!!
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Blessings & Peace ,
Dona Luna 😘🕊
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