Months ago, Beloved shared the video I post within this missive that he
had come to know as he realized his own traumas , upon much life
experience intensified painful lessons . Without speaking of my breech
or his stuff , there has been silence him which is something far too many
men adapt to as conditioned toddlers , to hold in tears …be the little big
man.
Their truths this when challenged , is silence , anger , or isolation,
and this has been normalized in a male dominated world and it shows.
🤓Far past time to release a lot of ignorance and abuse of the masculine .
And consideration for our 3 sons emotional intelligence or need to love
and respect was dominated by controlling , secretive , alienating , and
discrimination ; unless someone other that immediate family was watching.
abuse was not displayed overtly socially . Of course , within his secretive
life abuse were accepted as normal, as was addiction, in a self importance
that was childish .
On occasion to acknowledge the abuse of our sons by Ex MIL …and
confirmation has brought truth..smacking in the mouth of our son?
And more ..
What must she have exhibited her son? What bonds them in such
partnership that precludes his heart participation with Beloved ?
It was determined within his family that I did not serve the pedigree
of flagrant grandiosity , which was also used to shame our sons.
Thing is , I couldn’t buy into it , the self importance of new money ,
shielding self shame , trauma, abuse perhaps.
Traumas experienced were many , with a ” runner” partner , who ghosted
me openly dismissing any side effects on 3 souls , our sons who knew
my prescribed , induced mental illness and abuse by their dad .. Ex MIL
determined that it was my Mom and Dad should take care of me in my
” mental illness ” , not her son…Yes , finally I understood her complete
MeMeMe, it’s all about me , kids are an extension of me thus mine
forever concept of parenting …
A meeting in Harper’s christening , 5 years ago, had her expecting
me to extend my hand …I waited for her Christ Consciousness to kick in
alas it did not, and looking her straight in the eye , turned to my right.
Appearing in court with “Sweetie” , seated up front in solidarity to support
her son, and shame me, I requested both females be removed from the
hearing. The last time I had to see her, in affirmation of a bond of trauma
with her only son, again affirmed as ” Sweetie” booked early this year..
I listed to a repeat of the same type insanities going on, ” Sweeties”
unworthiness , her inability to work…it again was the female who failed her
son…Judgement ..
The dynamics of a relationship with a survivor of ignored C-PTSD , with a
an empathic , compliant woman of faith, mother of his 3 sons
or a sweetheart , who met him equally , (horribly cruel and abusive to me)
on every level , saving him , making him “happy”, each left in depleted
health .. it took me years to begin to wake …I am sure Sweetie has trauma
as well, undiagnosed . Hearing her screams in April via phone
as I contracted business was confirmation and concluded and
completed my lesson in hysterical drama and anger as directed towards me
for 20 years . Abuse
Each near death, lessons completed with each other ; he
rediscovered love ….clinging to his version of truth, his creative math ,
his money, his kids….
The trauma is a real possibility, as is high functioning Aspergers ,
Dementia …An MRI of the brain reveals more grey matter..
There are many ways to approach healing , self empowered , no meds.
A feminine view
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