I just checked in on facebook and found this quote and was amazed at the rebound of it coming back to me , much like a boomerang.
This basically sums me whole self up in life and always has , and I have been tested over and over ..finally I just took a time out , 10 years celibate , but never ever having my soul core dreams in romance , more over the lessons .
I took my big sister Mom role very to heart and as such , my normal need to know , why he suffered so.. Why he kept making blunders in life . I discovered facts once awakened that blew my mind , and recalled my base line defense of him and childhood pranks that had negative impact on him. He was very sensitive , for many reasons, but a very angry soul as well , raely seen at home , having no responsibilities. He took care thru the night of our baby brother who was a handful ..Mom worked 11/7 shift .
Communication only happens if he wanted , seldom reaching out , and he was the same with youngest sister.
Befieftly very close to eldest half sister , and very loyal , preferring her over me and very clear about it as he became a man…
His treatment of me was up and down , but clarified when Dad died beyond ignoring or getting past , and Dad was targeted as was I. His efforts $ where however thwarted as always by his partner…
So, I learned , I never made him happy , and the good times were just his mask . His anger and hatred are so very deep , on so many levels , while he’s lightness and sweet , his threat to kill me 2013, and rearranging “old man’s ” will proved to me little more that revenge .. Top that with gobs of RX as he slowly and painfully holds on, stage 5 kidney failure as a veteran, as a Dad, as a husband , brother, friend , he has no one holding him, for though he speaks of God , he could not commit ..knowing he was hell bound … yea he’s been there for a while..
I surrendered this relationship upon Dad’s exit . No overtures on his part , so it’s what it is .. Wishing him no ill will
and Thanking him for so many lessons .
Blessings & Peace ,
Dona Luna🐸 😘♥️
Chapter four , TheFeminine Divine and the Reclaiming of Wholeness, from Feminine Mysteries in the Bible , by Ruth Rusca
Quantum physics tells us, reality is dependent on the observer . On a psychological level, Christian Trinity teaches that as long as we hold make and female to be opposites, superior or inferior , we remain stuck , in our development , at the second level , the one Jung refers to as “the stage of the son” the state of conflict that we have identified with the period of the Judges in the Bible. We need to locate a middle avenue of love, of Holy Spirit, of wisdom, where BOTH sides are honored as equal. On a psychological level, it is a question of Harmony
The realm of the middle is situated in the human soul as the missing fourth , as part of the divine. The soul is the only place where the divine third can become whole . Maria Prophetissa : “One becomes two, two becomes three , and out of the third comes the forth ” A mysterious transformation transpires within the soul, in a realm beyond the reach of words . And yes it is not easy to totally surrender to the divine present in out souls and present in our everyday humble lives but returning home comes through transformation of our divine source, our roots, our Tree of Life